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as cliche as it may be, curiousity killed the cat.
she was pricked by the thornes on her flower bed.
yet she didn't stop playing with it.
she was hurting herself.
until time seemed to pause for a moment, then slow down.
blood flowed out and it suddenly stopped.
tears were formed around the corner of the eye.
it flowed down, just as little raindrops would.
no longer was there life in her.
she was all limp on the inside. weak.
she's fully aware that the thornes were just there.
with no intentions to hurt her. to make her cry.
how fragile love can be.
yet how strong it can be.
after long hours of pain and crying,
everything seems alright.
a guiding hand pulled her back,
from the shadows of coldness and stone hard hearts.
as much as she resisted, the hand persisted.
love never seemed so strong before.
she cried again. this time, for happiness.

EVERYTHING'S GOOD AND WELL NOW.
that was all in the near past.

jing er. jeff. sus. junhong. pat. reina. mj. dasheng. shi ning. oli. me.
all headed down to temasek poly early early in the morning.
wee came all the wayy to send me to lot one (: heh. thankyou.
since we all didn't know how to get down to tp, sus was our tour guide.
we took a mrt to woodlands, took a bus to tampines, and another bus to tp.
the ride was long and draaagggy.
but we made it there. the things that scared us was:
1) the height of the other team
2) the scorching sun.
but hey!! it was all for fun and games, winning was the least of our concerns.
by the way, we were there for SIM netball championships.
so yes. a total of 2 wins.
we were like babies there. relatively short, and young.
we were there from 8.30am to 4pm. thus my colour.
(trust me, it's way worse than sentosa)
heh. so after that went over to wee's for linus' bbq.
headed home. and for the record i went to bed at 10pm!! (:

the chinese AOs are tomorrow and i can't remember sitting my butt down on a chair and doing something about it.
haha. for the first time, i woke up for the 9am service in church.
hoping my brother would still be home to go to church with me.
he left me alone at home, AGAIN.
lousy cow. so i took a bus and got weird stares on the bus.
this girl that dropped at the same stop as me thought i was stalking her.
but heyy!! we're going to the same church and we're both late.
had a good catching up time with my church mates.
since i always go for the 11am service, it's no wonder we have so much to talk about.
had some weird gossips about people.
haha. things that i never knew or ever imagined would happen. happened.
yeahh.. went for lunch with family at temasek club.
yumyum. i have never smiled at the sight of chinese food until today.
slept a little more when i got home.
and yeahh.. nothing much lahh.. so fine.
i'm gonna watch a movie upstairs!! yeahhh..

tensed up.

the atomosphere today in school was just tense.
the promotional examination results were officially released today.
i thank God for my pass and though i was disappointed, it was a blessing that i received from heaven.
though i was happy that i promoted, i didn't feel the least bit excited or happy enough to celebrate.
i love my friends. and i don't want to let them go.
it's just no fun moving on without your buddies around you.
i pray hard that they get their re-paper and that they'll make it.
i know they can make it. i have all the faith in them.
they are smart and hardworking. they'll make it.
it was a day with little smiles from my part. some tears cos i just hate the feeling of moving on without the people close to you.
my friends have been ever so brave as to hide those tears inside of them so we do not worry.
but i know them. and i know they feel disappointment. be strong my friends.


the past few days have been nothing but a bed of roses.
i smile. i laugh. yet smile again.
all because i'm happy.
some may call me weird, mad. whatever they want.
i'm falling deeper and faster into this feeling that erases all hurts and sadness that i may have.
thankyou for your patience and your love.
you gave me hope.

about a girl

sherilyn said that my blog was boring 'cos it didn't feature her.
haha. so yes.
sherilyn so is actually a very sweet and nice girl.
someone who may seem really mean and horrid on the surface.
but trust me, it's all a facade.
she's sweet. nice. friendly. caring. and what not.
not to mention that she's super uber pretty!! (:
i haven't seen her in ages. and i miss her loads./


the current issue on pjc is the abolishment of the ccas in our school.
it's created such a big uproar among the student population.
with so many appeals to have their ccas back.
ccas that were part of their memories, learning journey, fun. and part of their lives.
ccas brought out true leaders. those who are compassionate yet firm in their beliefs.
i'm glad they didn't take choir away from me.
but they took away the sports.
sports are games that bring out our true character and build us up.
i feel for all my friends who are in sports. or in this case were.
why don't our school just give the students what they want?
give them what they desire and have a passion for?
why disadvantage their own students when it come to university entry?
a student in hwa chong and pioneer can score the same results but what makes them different is the ccas.
why take away the only thing that could put us above others?
pioneer junior college, please bring back the ccas.

goodbye seniors!!

not too long ago.
sentosa was a funky time!! (:
wee came to send me to meet helmi&kenny&eugene at lot one.
haha. and he happened to leave his handphone on the taxi.
so it's a long story and he decided to go to the beach with us.
took the 187 and tim got on as usual.
talked a lot of rubbish on the way there.
haha. when we reached. we argued about siloso beach or palawan.
siloso it was then.
got onto the wrong bus. how smart can we get.
VOLLEYBALL!! a sport which i totally cannot play.
haha. got yelled at non-stop for being afraid of the ball.
eugene as usual, stood in the shade. HAHA.
rach came after a while.
we went into billabong to get us some tanning gear.
haha. we went away from the guys and went tanning!!
it was super hot. but we just lazed around over until tim&wee decided to come around.
haha. rach went swimming cos she was feeling.. well. hot.
i slacked around.
played volley again while rach sat under the shade and read a book.
haha. bimbo!! and it was a bimbo book she was reading as well.
eugene&helmi&kenny went kayaking.
rachel being the bimbo she was stayed in the shade.
tim went to sleep.
wee&i went cycling around the area.
saw vanessa. said hello. saw a lot of other pioneers there too.
haha. went back. and it seriously was a warm day.
got thrown into the sea. rachel and tim were laughing their heads off.
stupid people. haha. watched the guys jump on one another.
went for a shower and then home sweet home.

the day after not too long ago.
went to school with tim looking like a drunkard lobster.
and the rest of us red and black.
haha. sleepy!! still on totally holiday mood.
haha. quite a short day lahh.. not too bad.
oh yes. didnt' stay for the whole enrichment day 'cos we had two major boring talks in the morning.
and we got insulted. bahh.
went to town with des&wee&bunkie.
bunkie was meeting my cousin and didnt' wanna watch 4brothers.
so wee&i went to catch that movie.
while bunkie&des talked and talked around starbucks.
walked around a little more.
and home!! (:

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*SCREAMS* my two most hated subjects!!
i just pray for an EEO!!
i wanna get promoted.

the year 2s spent about a year with us.
many bonds were made.
many friendships were made.
some faced relationships. both past and the present.

dear j2s,
thank you for being the guiding light to us for all these time. when we were lost in the world of jc life, you showed us how to live. taught us the survival skills of jc life. you've been there for us through thick and thin. and you tried your very best to make us feel at home. seniors, you played a part in becoming who we are today. you'll always be remembered by everyone of us. no longer will we hear the noisy canteen. no longer will we see your smiles, hear you laugh, get pats on our heads & listen to your teachings. tomorrow will be the last day we'll see you as a school cohort. year 2004, you've come so far. it's only the last step to go. the A levels is the biggest monster you'll ever face. have faith in yourself because i believe that each and every one of you will make it. you've made it thus far.. dont' give up your dreams. your aims. goals for anything in the world. i'll be keeping all of you in my prayers. continue to work hard. take care. i'll miss you all. thank you for being part of my life. part of me. iloveyou seniors!! you'll make it. and make it good.

*i feel like crying.

shopping?

apprently, friday's shopping spree was not a spree at all.
i walked and walked and walked with rach and wee.
to places like esprit, zara, mango, topshop, the whole of wisma&taka&isetan, heeren and paragon.
went to cine and i met my a math buddy (man). diott. and mich low (:
gossip a lot lah. haha. thanks to rach and wee for being understanding people.
i needed to catch up with old friends ya?
after that we ate a little. pigged out a little at bk.
continued our shopping "spree" and walked and walked
we gave up.
went for a drink and chit chat session while waiting for rach's brother.
i was messaging clara to see when she can go out with me!! (:
upon his arrival, rach left me.
wee & i headed down to paragon.
haha. seriously, there's nothing nice at all :(
i met miss bong there!! (:
went to talk to her and she was all nice and everything.
she thought i was in acjc as usual.
and i met kim and xiao en there too!! (:
talked a little and they had to go off.
went over to wisma again. and stepped into topshop.
i was just saying "i bet i'll see an ex mg girl in here"
and *bing* i saw.. SAMANTHA GWEE.
haha. we talked a lot of rubbish. from heart attacks. to me being a pang seh warrior. to pimples. and miss see. to shopping. to everything.
haha. WHAT A HAPPY REUNION.
(: (: (:
met rachel again. haha. sat on the stairs for some time.
and waited for yoke to come at heeren's fountain.
and i was stoning. haha.
then everyone thought i saw stoned cos yoke said the f* word.
haha. but i was stoning cos i never see yoke all pretty and dressed up for clubbing before.
make up and all. haha. thus i stoned. and shocked.
so rach and yoke got ready to party.
while i went home. (:
thanks wee for the company home!!

saturday. i left the house pretty late.
i wanted to sleep in and what not.
haha. so i met wee.linus. wee's wife.
haha. went to watch corpse bride. and IT'S REALLY REALLY GOOD!! (:
haha. it was quite sad. and touching lahh.
after that went to eat at holland v.
and just talked a lot of rubbish. and went home!!
no shopping done.

today mummy brought me shopping after church.
and she gave me a shopping budget of $150/-
haha. no extra. :( so i ended up buying a top and jeans from zara.
and apparently, i was saving on the budget to get a nice skirt.
but the jeans were nice and i wanted them!!
haha. end of the day. i have $34.10 for my expenditure.
haha. yeahh. which can't buy me a skirt. but i got my jeans!! (: (: (:
haha. yup. i'm happy now. not that im materialistic or anything. i needed them.
so yes. that's all. slept the rest of my day away.
dinner calls. goodbye world.

promos are overrr

HALLELUJAH!!! mummy. it's over (: (: (: (:
the taste of freedom once again is just splendid.
for the past few months, i've been mugging my butt off.
but it's finally over. and i feel that big. and i mean big burden of my shoulders for now.
howevers, i know that my mugging didn't pay off.
the gp paper was alright. i hope.
my econs - essay was alright. drq was ok. mcq was tough.
my geog - physical was tricky. human was tough cos i didn't study much.
math - killer.
chinese - need i say more?
so yeah. i hope to scrape through to promote for j2.
if not. it's either the poly in singapore or
aussie bums here i come!!

many things have happened in a short short time.
and im going to leave people alone.
cos there's really no point poking my nose into other people's business if they just won't listen to me.
but hey!! i'm doing this for your own good.
listen to your friends boy.

so yup. i'm going out to express my freedom!!
and town it is. it's been eons since i was last there.
haha. and the magic word that every girl loves.
and every guy doesn't? S.H.O.P.P.I.N.G!!
haha. and yes. the bimbo sarah is back.
well, here she is anyway. the mugging killed all her brain cells.
woohoo!!
rachel tann. wait up for me.

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